Calm

I know I haven't blogged in a while. Honestly, this has been one of the craziest, most emotional, most up + down months I've had in a good long time. And I don't want to re-live it.

Right now I want to celebrate the calm
and the peace
that i feel.

I feel like I can breathe.

And that feels good.

So what changed? Well, I could point to a lot of different things...

Spring is springing, the sun is shining, and I've started making lists to keep myself organized.

Or perhaps it's the fact that we found a house and I got my computer back. Oh wait, those two things still haven't happened yet.

I have a feeling, though, that it has more to do with the fact that I've shifted my focus back to God. I got awfully distracted for a while. I can't tell you how good it feels to just know that God is in control. I had to tell myself that over and over for a while, but now I know that it's true. And he loves me. And he wants good for me (even thought that might look different than I imagined). And somehow when I put him first (in my day, in my responses to people/situations, and in all aspects of my life), everything comes out better.

For weeks (or perhaps longer) I felt like I was just spinning my wheels. So many things to do and not enough time. But strangely, now that I get up every day, and spend time in the Word and in prayer, I've had enough time to get just about everything done (sans photo editing, which I can't do at the moment). Could it be that what they say is true? God can do more with 90% than you could do with 100%.

Our housing situation is still completely up in the air. We have an offer on one house (a short sale), but it's been probably 4-6 weeks now and they said it'll probably be another 2 weeks before we hear anything (I'll believe it when I see it). In the mean time, we've come across a few others. Some doors have closed and others still remain open. I have NO idea where we'll end up, but I've come to realize that God has the ability to lead and guide us in our search and to open and close doors as he wills. It's not worth it to worry.

What's changed is that God is daily reminding me of those simple truths...

Matthew 6

²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

²⁸"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Jeremiah 29

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ¹⁴ I will be found by you," declares the LORD...