Last night one of the final pieces (as far as I am concerned) fell into place, convincing me that Aaron could be it (now we've just got to give it time and keep our ears open for God's voice). At some point in my teenage years, I made a list of all the qualities I desired in a husband and that has sort of been my standard all along. As I read over my "list", he matched perfectly. Perfectly. Well... perfectly EXCEPT that I really felt like my husband would be called into the ministry, and Aaron had never even made mention of it. In fact, he seemed headed in the direction of business/career. I really felt, however, like God was saying that it was something that Aaron would figure out later and that I should just stay where I was. So I never worried about it, but at the same time, I did give it thought and I guess I did kinda keep up some of my walls because that is not something that I was/am willing to compromise. Last night, though, we were sitting on the couch talking after VBS, and somehow the subject came up (certainly not by my prompting) and Aaron told me that when he was in high school he felt that God was (undeniably) calling him to ministry, but since then, he'd pretty much forgotten about it or ignored it. Anyway... we proceeded to have a long conversation about where we were headed (concerning God's call), and while we came to no conclusions, we did pray about it. Right then and there we prayed about it. That was huge, not only concerning that particular issue, but in that praying together opened up a whole new level of intimacy between us.
Another thing that both of us realized last night (he called it to my attention) was that I Corinthians 13, "The Love Chapter", very accurately describes what he and I have together. Not a single thing in those verses has been compromised. I am going to go out on a limb and suggest that, not only do those elements exist within our relationship, but they abound. Perseverance, among a couple others, I realize, will have to undergo the test of time, but really... 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. We've got a very rare thing going here.
I can see myself with him. I really feel like this is real and I really feel that God is truly the forefront, the cornerstone of this relationship. It's one thing for two people to be Christians and to believe the same things, but with us, our faith is an integral part of who we are as a couple. And Aaron, as the spiritual leader of our relationship, is amazing. He truly challenges me to be the woman of God that I am called to be. He's a man of prayer. He's got integrity. There's no room for compromise. He's not afraid to hold me accountable. He has a relationship with God and DAILY gets in his word. He is the picture of what I want my husband, as the spiritual leader of our household, to be. He is a leader and he is strong and he loves God with all he's got.
Wow, I got really lucky.
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